The Spill Canvas [In My Brain]

I promise that soon I'll write something in here that's cohesive and brilliant (maybe even logical). For now, here's my vomit-draft (to quote my high school English teacher) on college thus far...

This year I learned that:

I’m so overwhelmed with thoughts that I don’t know how to articulate them anymore.
I like ice cream a lot. I could be much farther in my spiritual walk than I am—I’m just afraid of what God might call me to. Texting is a lame substitute for talking in person. I’m completely freaked out by people my age (or younger) getting married. Macbooks and spilled tea are an awful combination. I can’t live life always submitting the first draft. Naps aren’t just for old people anymore. I’m not as smart, clever, or awesome as I think I am. John Calvin, Thomas Hobbes, and Calvin and Hobbes are all interesting philosophers. Some bands get way better with time. I don’t appreciate my friends enough, and don’t adequately show the appreciation I do have. Siblings keep you humble. My parents are too amazing and sacrificial for words. Toll plaza passes make life way easier. I’m selfish. Even right-brained people need to know how to budget. Roommates were a good invention. There’s a crazy amount of grace covering my life. People skills are insanely valuable. Beating myself up about being human doesn’t accomplish anything. Poker is okay if you’re just betting with chips. It’s better to have a small part in a big project than a big part in a small one. I have hope. I’m not too old to learn new things that are totally unrelated to my major. I should use sun block more often. Beauty is not always subjective. Household chores can be very therapeutic. I’m afraid of failure—or even being average. I need lots of sleep to function. There are few things more valuable than having a mentor. Working out and dieting will never trump genetics. Sometimes I think I’m really unattractive. College gives you an opportunity to confront yourself—unless you’re too busy. Thinking is a use-it-or-lose-it skill. I’ll probably eat kosher for the rest of my life. Midnight conversations make life so much more comprehensible. Meeting people is one of my favorite hobbies. It’s worth being poor to go to a good school. I thought I would be a lot trendier by the time I got to college. Trends waste valuable money that could be spent in thrift stores. I’m lazy. Food service teaches you a lot about human nature. Sometimes I wish I had a boyfriend. Most of the time I’m thankful that I don’t. Just because something is required for a class doesn’t mean it’s worth complaining about. Spending the whole day on Facebook is pathetic…and kind of boring. Music puts a new perspective on everything. Sometimes you don’t need to upgrade. Real friends make the price of gas irrelevant. Blasting “Play That Funky Music, White Boy” can be a legitimate father-daughter bonding moment. I’m not ready to get old. Prayer isn’t optional. Who really gives a crap about the iPhone? True success is conquering your addictions. It doesn’t matter how much you know, just how much you grow.